Thursday, January 14, 2010

Just Like *That*

Literally, in a matter of seconds.

My RE's office called today and since my insurance policy changed in January, they're not covering IVF. They will only cover IUI, because I work for a Catholic hospital who can make their own provisions.

I'm in shock. It's over. There's no way we can do IVF now; it's too late in the game. I can't believe this is happening.

How am I supposed to have faith when I can never even get back up after being kicked down? R and I can't take this rollercoaster ride anymore.

I don't know what God's doing.....but I can't imagine that His plan is to continually hurt us. R wants to fight it, and I'm ready to just move on and start our new life in Texas. I don't think the tears are going to end anytime soon. Our loss of the dream of having a family is too much to even think about right now.

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